a time to blossom

blos-som [blos-uh m]

1. The flower of a plant, esp. of one producing an edible fruit.

2. The state of flowering

3. To flourish; develop

 

I feel like this word really describes what I’m trying to feel right now.

I just finished the most exhausting, stressful and horrible semester of my life. Between losing friends, boyfriends, being sick, stressful situations and my grandfather passing away by the end of the semester I felt completely out of control of my own life and I’m so terribly ready for that to be over and for me to move on to something completely new.

I need to blossom.

I know when the term “blossom” is used in reference to girls it generally is speaking about girls reaching that “certain time” in their lives. But, for me I feel it is a constant growth… life is always changing and I love to be changing with it.

Today I started working again at the advertising place I worked last summer. This is not something I consider to fall into my “blossoming” category considering that it’s just something I’m doing again. Luckily, I’m only doing this for 2 weeks.

I love being single and having 3 jobs this summer… I feel like such a grown up woman.

By the way, I’m 21 now. How weird is that? I don’t drink but just the idea that if I wanted to I could go out and buy alcohol and there would legally be nothing wrong with it is a very strange feeling.

In 2 weeks after Jordan [my brother] graduates I’m going to be a Nanny & photography assistant/graphic designer in Alexandria, Virginia [washington d.c. area]. This is what I’m talking about when I speak of blossoming.

I love growing up.

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